Little Things

“I told her we were going to get married, and all she could talk about was frogs. She said there’s these hills where it’s hot and rains all the time, and in the rainforests there are these very tall trees and right in the top branches of the trees there are these like great big flowers called… bromeliads, I think, and water gets into the flowers and makes little pools and there’s a type of frog that lays eggs in the pools and tadpoles hatch, and grow into new frogs and these little frogs live their whole lives in the flowers right at the top of the trees and don’t even know about the ground, and once you know the world is full of things like that, your life is never the same.”-Terry Pratchett

Words That Are Hard to Ask For

Tell me that things are all going to be all right. Tell me that you dreamed about me again and when you saw me in the morning afterwards I still looked like that dream. Tell me sometimes you can’t get me out of your head, tell me you catalogue every touch some days, trying to hold onto the important ones, like you can somehow figure out what those are. Tell me I matter to you, that being away is hard and that every once and awhile if the wind is right the word love forms in your head, even if you don’t know what to do with it. Tell me you see me, not the shadow of her, with her voice you could capture and sell and softness you could lie in forever. Tell me you see me, even the hard parts, with sarcasm and sharp angles, with under enthusiasm and sunken eyes. Tell me that even those parts are still worth something. Tell me there are still times when you want more than what we have, tell me that your scared of losing anything so you pretend this is enough. Tell me that if you finally did what you always threatened, if you gave up on this life, took what you had in an old van and ran away you would take me with you. Tell me that I’m worth keeping, even if one day I would leave. Tell me you see me when I’m not there, in people with dresses I would like, books in shops that I’ve told you about and songs that you don’t really know except for when I sing them, softly, under my breath and out of key. Tell me that you worry about me, that you want more for me than what I got. Tell me that you wish life was kinder to me, tell me that you want to fix it, even if you’re not really sure how and you know I wouldn’t let you. Tell me that when I borrow your sweater and you get it back you like the way my smell clings to it, you like to think of us intertwining, and how if even just for a little while you’ll smell like me. Tell me that this means something, that in the end when it’s all said and done if we can’t be romantic characters that at least we can be tragic ones. Tell me that everything is a tragedy and that it’s all the good parts that make it so sad. Then tell me that it will be all right and listen as I tell you the same.

Before You Are Saying Doctor Who Is Going Downhill Let Me Explain You A Thing

So any Doctor Who fans out there? Look at all their little meerkat heads popping up, well now that I have the attention of the fandoms I have a few things to say with the season finale coming up this week. So I am a huge Doctor Who fan, just started watching the series a few months ago but I am totally in love with this series. It is just everything I could ask for in a television program and with that in mind I have a few things to say. First of I know lately a lot of people have been complaining about Moffat and Matt Smith in the second half of series 7. They say the show’s not what it use to be and Moffat is just stealing ideas from Russell T. Davies. Now okay, he has had a few slightly similar episodes but may I say when you are writing about a time travelling, pretty much immortal alien who has this weird obsession with earth even though there are infinite places out there for him to go and he has very similar enemies some things are going to be similar. I mean yes the cybermen popped up again but that’s what they do, yes they were going to try and pollute the air and kill everyone but with all of the pollution in this world it is hard not to keep coming back to that idea. Writing Doctor Who has got to be pretty bloody difficult as it is, there are such high expectations and you are going to have slumps. Moffat may not be at a particular high point in his writing but we can forgive him, he thought up the weeping angels right? Those things are freakin’ terrifying and you would have to be some kind of dark evil genius to even think of that, oh wait Moffat is some kind of dark evil genius. Remember all that crap with Rory? I was emotionally attached to Rory and then he kept on killing him! That was a mentally scarring experience. Lets forgive him for not being super original right now, Jenna Louise Coleman is probably distracting him. I mean god she is gorgeous. Just look at that face. 

Who wouldn’t be distracted? And of course to all the complaints about Matt, just be quiet. He may have a funny chin but I am rather attached to that bowtie and he is just full of life and excitement and awesomeness. And yes with him as the doctor the show has become a bit more childish but he is so much like a kid himself what can you expect? And he is a superb actor, can we just talk for a minute about the nightmare in silver? When he was pretending to be two different people at the same time because the cyber thing was in his head, I mean oh my god. That was just so well done, I was watching that and I was all like, I think I am in love. He may not be the most attractive man I have ever seen but god everything else about him makes up for it. I mean he’s just so cute!

So while we are on the topic of the nightmare in silver I would like to say that whole episode was very well done. Yes lately we may not be seeing the very best Doctor Who episodes that we have ever seen but they are still pretty damn good, better than those going away episode things that David Tennant did on his own. I really didn’t like those, I mean the doctor was just sulking and it was annoying. While I love Tennant I wish he would’ve just grown up and dealt with the fact that he isn’t human. Go somewhere else besides earth and find some people who live longer, the universe is infinite, they are out there. Nightmare in silver though, aside from Matt’s superb acting can we talk about the evolution of the cybermen? The cybermen had always been my least favourite bad guys because they were just so typical robot, I mean bo-oring. But in this episode they evolved, that whole thing with the upgrading to be able to deal with their surroundings and the fact that they are so fast now was super cool. And Clara being all, No, you listen to me! Was great. Of course Neil Gaiman helped write this episode which just automatically makes this great, I love my Neil. Ever read Good Omens? So good. So to all you complaining about the show lately just drop it okay? Would you rather they cancelled the show? Seasons finale is coming up this week and when I watch it online, me being without access to any BBC channels at all, I don’t want to be seeing all these comments from some complainers about Moffat and Smith. Just drop it and be grateful we have had the show for this long at all, I mean 50th anniversary coming up this year! WOOOOOW! Lets just focus on the positive here. And now I leave you with a photo of the doctor, a fez and a mop. Let us never forget the fez.

Infinitesimal by Mother Mother

So my newest song discovery. The other day my friend was going through my iPod and she told me about Mother Mother, she thought it sounded like something I would listen to. So that night I looked them up and I was just all meh. They weren’t bad but I just wasn’t that into them. So then yesterday I was studying physics and I was on grooveshark, looking for music. If you’ve ever been on there you’ll know they do that thing where they suggest songs for you based on what you’ve listened to before and this song popped up. I clicked on it cause hey, you only live once and ever since then I have not been able to get the song out of my head. Totally awesome, it feels all summery and dancy and stuff which is great because the weather has just started heating up and I am looking for a summer anthem. I have an anthem okay? It’s not that weird, it’s like having a theme song. Lots of people have theme songs, spiderman, ironman, batman, Mcdonalds. I just happen to have an anthem okay? Only during summer though and it changes every year. This song is definitely in the running for anthem 2013, it’s so catchy. The beginning part is a bit awkward though..

The Truth by Terry Pratchett

Yesterday was a bad day, I had spent most of it working on this 3000 word essay I was doing on terminal illnesses and how people view death. This involved a lot of research on people with terminal illnesses and spending a whole day reading about death in that way is hard. When I gave up at 4 in the afternoon I was drained. I was feeling very depressed and kind of sick and all I wanted to do was curl into a ball and cry. So I went to my room and began looking around in my book shelves for the most comforting book I had. I grabbed The Truth. I must clarify here that this isn’t a happy, feel good book. It doesn’t in any way restore your faith in humanity, in fact there are some quite horrible people in this book who never change. This book is set in Discworld, the world that travels through space on the back of four elephants who are all sitting on a turtle. There are dwarves in this book, quite a lot of them though they probably aren’t what you expect. There is a troll and he is probably closer to what you expect but he still wears a suit, there is a werewolf and some imps and a vampire and he is definitely not what you expect. I don’t care what you think when you think vampire, I can almost guarantee he’s not like that. He doesn’t sparkle, at all. He does explode a few times though but that is just a kind of joke. Oh and did I mention this book is all about William de Worde, editor of the Ankh Morpork Times. He just wants to get at the truth, unfortunately everyone else wants to get at him. It is a hilarious and captivating and fantastical and slightly philosophical book. It has got to be one of my favourite books ever, it is definitely by my favourite author ever. It is a must read that I have read so many times the binding is coming apart in my copy. It makes me smile like an idiot every time I read it though that effect is not isolated to this book alone, when I get to the and of pretty much every Terry Pratchett books I am so full of feelings I don’t even know what to do with myself. 

Why Can’t We Be Friends

So heard of the game ninja fishing? Well it’s a game that you can get for your iPhone or iPod that I was recently introduced to by one of my asian friends. The crazy one of my asian friends. I’m not saying her being asian has anything to do with her natural weirdness, I’m just differentiating between her, my other asian friends and my crazy white friend. I hang out with weird people. Anyways let me walk you through this game ninja fishing, so imagine you are a ninja. You are a fat ninja who seems vaguely Russian. I know, bear with me. So anyways you as this ninja are going fishing because your sensei told you to catch all the fish in the ocean or you don’t get any yogurt.  So you hop into your little dinky boat and go off to fish, you through your hook in the line but the ocean is so full of fish you don’t just grab the first one you see, no that’s for sissies, you dodge fish for as far down as you can go and then proceed to grab the treasure chest that is always waiting conveniently for you at the bottom and then on the way up you grab as many fish as you can possibly fit on your hook. Then because that isn’t good enough you then proceed to throw all the fishes up in the air and slice them on the way down with your little ninja blade. It’s like fruit ninja with a lot more blood and fish. It’s kind of a weird game. I was playing it the other day and one my friends walked up to me who had never seen and asked me what I was playing. I tried to explain it in a way that tried to make it seem a lot less weird than it was and a lot cooler but I don’t think anything about this game could be cool. She just looked really confused and said ew gross. I really don’t think I am getting invited to her next party. Though I must be fair this game isn’t a lot weirder than most video games. Compared to some other games it is actually pretty normal, it has standard video game logic, memorable characters and is pretty addicting. I must I have been playing a little more than can possibly be healthy for me. The real thing that bugs me about this game is the subtle digs about other games you can get for your phone and stuff, like angry birds and fruit ninja. Before you cast the line you see the fat ninja sitting in his boat with his line and he usually has a speech bubble. He says some pretty random things and most are pretty silly but sometimes he makes little digs against some other games. This kind of bugs me, I mean I know that it’s kind of silly and only one game can be top in app purchases at one time but really? You sink this low? Do you need to be this petty? And this applies to pretty much all of these companies who try to put down their competitors, it is just super annoying. Don’t try to drag people your customers into your own personal feuds, just let your product speak for itself and don’t do these kind of petty, annoying things. 

Eating Through Seattle

So the other day I skipped school for the day and went down to Seattle. I know, bad girl, skipping is bad but the way I see it in say even a month I won’t remember what I had done in school that day but I would remember my first trip to Seattle so I went. It was a lot of fun and all but that isn’t what I’m blogging about, what i’m blogging about is the food. I don’t know if I just hit the right spots or if Seattle just has really good taste buds but man it was reaally good. We went to Pike market and I found this little sandwich shop hidden in like a corner off to the side. It seriously consisted of a counter, a black board with a menu nailed to the wall and a small kitchen on the back wall. They made though this absolutely to die for eggplant parmesan sandwich, it was so good I just can’t even begin to describe it. I think I am going to go back to Seattle just for that sandwich.

Now the other two things I found that I love I know aren’t as exclusive to Seattle but as I discovered them there I will ever attribute them to that city. They are both ice creams because even though it is just peeking into spring I think it is always a good time for ice cream. I can go to the beach in the dead of winter when I’m bundled up in like 6 layers of clothing and still get ice cream. I got these 2 though quite a few hours apart so I’m not a total fat ass. So the first is honey lavender ice cream. Gosh, drool it is so good. It tastes like a spring day in your mouth and it’s kind of like what I had always imagined eating a flower would taste like. Of course flowers don’t actually taste good at all, (I ate one when I was a kid, I was a strange child) but if flowers did taste good that’s what they would taste like. So good. 

The final ice cream was dulce de leche ice cream. So I heard about it first on this talk show I was watching when I was on break and I was determined to try it because they made it sound really good. So just before we were going to start heading back we found this little ice cream place and my sister really wanted some ice cream because she hadn’t had any all day and even though it was like 10 at night we went and got some. And when I was in there I saw the had dulce de leche and I of course had to try it. It was good. Now I’m not going to say it was better than that honey lavender because it’s hard to top that but it was still good. I may have been affected though by the fact that I was really tired and my taste buds were probably compromised but I liked it. You ever find it in an ice cream shop it is definitely worth trying.

So that’s what to eat if you ever find yourself in Seattle. It’s the tiniest bit sad isn’t it that the most memorable parts of my trip was the food. Well some people aren’t meant for great things and others are meant to be fat. Sigh, such is life.

Oh and disclaimer, I didn’t actually take any of these photos, I just got them off the wonderful thing we call the internet because when I see food in front of me I eat it, I don’t waste time taking pictures. All the pictures though look pretty much the same as what I ate. Don’t you just love image searches?

Kiss the Girl by Chameleon Circuit

So I just got back from Battle of the Bands. It was pretty good though I really could’ve done without the screamo bands. I just do not understand the attraction of them. I think the winners were really good though and deserved to win but my favorite song of the whole night was performed by my least favorite band next to the screamos, though I’m being charitable when I say that they even count as bands. So this one band did a cover of the little mermaid song “Kiss the Girl”. I really liked the way they did it and when I got home I went on YouTube looking for something like that but could not find anything even similar. I am kind disappointed and I would be totally jazzed if they post there song somewhere for me to find but I did find this song which I quite enjoy it in a different way. Anyways I felt I should share my disappointment with the internet, who I feel is a separate entity from the people behind the computer screens. It is a huge information hungry, soul sucking, sarcastic shoulder to cry on.

Tuesdays With Morrie by Mitch Albom

So this book was an absolutely amazing, life changing book. It managed to in just a few hundred pages change all of my perceptions of life. It was about an old man who gets ALS, a muscle disorder which of course you knew but just in case, go here —–> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amyotrophic_lateral_sclerosis. And as you know it is an absolutely horrifying disease that kills you slowly and painfully. It’s a book about how he copes with dying and how he approaches death, told by one of his old students who is now a journalist who came to see him every Tuesday for weeks before he dies. It is actually a true story and knowing that gives you so much hope in humanity, I just cannot even begin to describe it. It was beautiful.

Misguided Ghost Cover by EMZsings

So this is not me, just to get it out of the way. I found this girl on YouTube. Right now this is one of my favorite songs and this cover might even be better than the original. Oh god, so this is what betrayal feels like, SORRY PARAMORE LOVE! Though I must say one of the reasons I watched this video like 20 times was her freakin hair, does anyone else find that crap distracting while being so amazing? It took me three times just to hear the song because the whole I time I was staring at her amazing hair. i could stare at hair all day man, maybe I just have problems though…